did you know I used to do this?
no, not dress up in random 80's clothing and pose for pictures. I used to sing and dance for a living. really. I did it in high school, college, post college, and early married years.
I loved it. I loved it so much I majored and graduated with a degree in Music Dance Theater from BYU. I still love it, and I miss it terribly some days.
before I met DJ, I was convinced I would graduate, move to NYC, get an apartment, and brave broadway. there was no doubt in my mind I would be singing and dancing my way down the great white way in no time.
DJ convinced me otherwise. the dream didn't fade all at once. I still thought I'd move to a big metropolitan area, break into a new theater scene, take it by storm, and professionally perform for years before we started a family.
life convinced me otherwise.
I finished the run of my last show when I was 20 weeks pregnant with Mack (see the little prego tummy above?). I've 'almost' done shows here and there. I actually thought I was going to do a show this Spring before we left Pittsburgh. I was wrong, and it makes me wonder when I'll ever perform again.
well last night I had a dream. I dreamed I was performing on broadway. I had the costume, the director, the dressing room, the card--I had it all. the dream was so real. so real that when I was pulled from sleep at 6:30 am by my babbling little boy I had to orient myself. I looked up at my ceiling and tried to place where I was (isn't that the weirdest feeling?). I finally came to, looked over at my cute, sleeping hubby, and got up to retrieve my happy little man. for a small second I was sad the dream was over. but, when I picked up mack, and he reached around my neck, gave me a big hug and a big slobbery kiss, my heart literally melted. I have the best job ever. I'm a mommy, and I have a new dream--a dream to have a family as wonderful as these guys...
and these guys...
because really, what could be better than that?
so here's to dreams.
may they only get better with time. :)
12 comments:
i'm glad i could know both libbys. and i'm glad dreams are continually changing. you are such a good mommy and extremely talented person!
This post made me cry! I too had different "dreams"-- I was so sure I was going to veterinary school and would own my own practice next to my home. And some days I still miss my "dreams".
But now I can't imagine anything other than being a wife and mommy to the most fantastic people on the face of the planet. I don't live to rescue and heal animals anymore. I live to make my family happy and make my home sacred. I never saw that coming! And it fills my heart with such joy and gratitude that I was blessed with all this happiness despite having no idea how much I wanted it. :)
Some dreams are better than you ever could have imagined. Your life of motherhood will keep getting better and better... just wait.
I am so glad you have chosen wisely the best part of life!!
Aawwwwww, Libby that's sweet. I'm glad you have another dream that will be just as fulfilling!
I have ballet dreams ALL the time. Like you I'm sad I'm not a dancer anymore. Too bad we never can have both. I also think though, that we both made the best decision!! Sweet little ones make everything better :)
same story for me! i'm so happy to be a mom though, that is definitely the best job.
I'm glad you got to experience part of your dream so you don't feel completely "gypped" but it is definitely better to be a mom even though there are things we miss doing soo much!!!
I love this post...the first few lines about 80s clothing were especially funny :) But you're right, dreams change! And I am enjoying the change of plans in a way I never thought I would.
Love the blog! I ran into your Mom and Leyf (Leif? Layf??) at Wal Mart the other day. He's big! The last time I saw him he was still running around and kicking people. Time flies! Your little Mack is adorable. Hope all is well!
I am glad that DJ convinced you otherwise, too, because that brought you to Pittsburgh. And with your gifts and talents you will always be able to use them in one form or the other.
Love this post Libby- puts everything into perspective. I hope to be able to have a little guy (or girl) someday and be able to start a family of my own. Thank you for your beautiful words.
Dunno how I am finding this post 2 and a half months later, Libby. But I needed it today. Thanks, pretty girl. Miss you lots.
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